Depression Is a Stage When You Start Losing The Meaning Of Life
February 28th, 2007By: Faith Foo Siew Yuen
Depression is a stage when you start losing the meaning of life. A sense of lost, lost about self, lost in purpose. You don’t know where to go. No more future, no where to turn to, you feel no one understand you, no one sympathize your cry. They don’t understand why you are sad all the times, why are you moody, why your mood swings from one end to another.
Depression is a stage where life has no more meaning to you. You feel so hopeless, so miserable and you see yourself not achieving anything at the end of your life’s journey. You just live a day at a time and hope that tomorrow wouldn’t come because, you just dread to go through the whole cycle again.
You feel like crying all the times. You are constantly sad. You don’t know why, there is nothing that can make you happy anymore. When you are alone you start to think of many things and you will cry over them. Cry yourself to sleep most of the time.
You regret over many things you’ve done, your past mistakes. You are upset because it seems like people don’t listen properly to what you say. Why can’t they understand you? Why can’t they understand your situation? You find it so hard to express yourself and handle your own feelings. You always feel guilty and feel that you are such a burden to the people who want help you.
When you are alone you just stare blankly into space. You can see through everything thing and everyone as though they don’t exist. You can just stare and when blank. When you drive on the highway your mind goes blank and, just drive on without knowing what is happening around you.
One day I was wondering if something were to happen, I would definitely not able to anticipated the emergency. I will just be in a daze and drive without knowing where and how all I know is drive.
Depression is a stage where I lost my appetite, I lost interest in food. Eating is not a joy anymore and I just eat for the sake of eating. Forcing the food into my throat and to make myself feel full.
Must I die as ordinarily. Must I die in vain Must I die with emptiness Must I die unknown Must I die forgotten Must I die hopeless Must I die in darkness Must I !!!
I have come to my end. The End! There is no more way out for me. If this is life? I am only existing and barely live. Waiting to pass away without a legacy……
Dear friend if this is how you feel. You need help! Please go and seek for good counseling and pray to God. I urge you no matter how hopeless it may seem. If you are a Christian and you feel God has shut His ear and too far away for you to reach. You have hope! His is actually next to you and have never given up hope on you.
If you are not a Christian He is always there waiting for you to call upon Him and waiting to help you.
Jesus came and died for ALL not just for the Christian.